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Thursday, November 20

你问在我心中　是否还苦恼
那次受伤　否决了爱的好
谢谢你的关照　我一切都好
一个人　不算困扰

爱虽然很美妙　却不能为了寂寞　又陷了泥沼

爱要耐心等待　仔细寻找　感觉很重要
宁可空白了手　等候一次　真心的拥抱
我相信在(这个)世界上　一定会遇到
对的人出现(在眼角)

那次流过的泪　让我学习到
如何祝福　如何转身　不要
在眼泪体会到　与自己拥抱
爱不是一种需要　是一种对照

能愿意为了一份爱　付出去多少
然后得到多少并不计较
当我想清楚的时候　我就算已经准备好放手去爱　海阔天高
喔... 耶...

I didnt know about this song till Verlyn sang it at ktv last night. The lyrics is just what I think I should tell myself(esp those in bold).

32hours had passed but not a single sms/call from him. I did not contact him either for I dont think Im in any wrong.

His msg came at 9.30pm asking am I home yet n my reply was NO, maybe abit later.

Y maybe? Cos I was hesitating whether to go KTV with my girlfriends not, but never did I expect him to get angry just because I wasnt going home or anywhere near home @ 9plus pm.

Hello? Im no longer a small girl. Do you think I still have to stick to a strict curfew? I no longer club like I used to or go out till the wee hours.

U can ask my close friends, how obedient I am NOW as compared to the past. U never see how much I have change but only rack up the past and complained. Whatever I did can never ever please you.

Everything was my fault in your eyes.. If that's so, why hold on? If loving me is making you so stressful then I rather let you go. Bear the pain and sadness now rather than dragging and suffering more next time.

Well, I dont have the courage to make any decision, so I hope you can sort this out soon. Im tired, very tired mentally....
Yours Turly, Niko 5:45 AM ♥