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Saturday, December 15

Kaoz, later working 0630-1630 shift. 10hrs @ counter.. so boring.

Was msging with 1 of my pri classmate and some thoughts n memories came flowing back.

I rem my grp of girls consist of 5 and plus 2more who was with us now and then. Alrdy, 2 got married n mother n mum to be and now 1 more got married recently too.

This girl that got married recently was once very close to me but somehow we got abit too close for comfort and a silly misunderstanding spoiled everything. Was thinking, if we had contd our f/s even till now, I wuld have been e bridesmaid as said in e past.

In my 22yrs of life, only 3ladies had been my best pal. Sadly to say, we didnt maintain e f/s well enough..

Lady 1, I got to knw her in P2 when we was transfer to a totally new class. She became my best friend since n though posted to diff sec sch, we keep in contact thru letters and meet ups. As we get older, we simply just drift apart.

Lady 2, was in my pri sch grp.. tgt with lady 1 n 2more others. I rem hating her back then cos of her attitude, but we bonded during sec 3 when we went for e same tuition class and it got even better later.. I dont really mix ard with females, so she was like my 1 n only gf. N yet, we quarreled and split. That was when we r 19, 3yrs back.

Lady 3, got to knw her thru wholivesnearyou. She was in e same sch as me n live in e same area. Frm strangers, we became close like sisters. I was glad I found a friend again, but again, she left.

Ever since, I nv want to have any more best friend. I treat all friends be it guys or female e same. Cant stand e thought of losing yet another close friend again. I aint a gd friend myself, so its like we click we stay.. if we dont, u leave.

Same goes for r/s as well. A few people commented abt me for what I did to Ki. People who dun even knw wat e heck is happening had actually e nerve to insult me. I wuld say, it's my life and choice. Put urself in my shoes and I think u will do e same too. Whats e point of staying when u knw its not gng anywhere. Isnt letting go early rather than dragging it n hurting even more? N pls, it is alrdy over.. so stop all e silly comments. I've nv regret my choice and I think he would be better off w/o a girl like me

Time for a short rest =)
Yours Turly, Niko 1:34 AM ♥