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Saturday, November 24

After last night events, I know im still very immature when it comes to handling my feelings.

I shldnt be thinking of my ex when I alrdy had my bf with me now.

Feelings come and go. It will come to you easily but when u wanted it to go away, it just refuses to do so.

U feel alot more for ur ex, even till now. AND u knw you wont get what u want if u're back @ him. U'll lose your freedom and ur life is gonna be abt you,him work and family only. Friends will slowly get lil chance to meet you but despite all these, you feel comfort is his hugs. U knw e reason for him in doing all these to you cos U'RE the one who betrayed his trust first. U lied to him and broke many promises just because YOU wanna had a little more fun with ur friends. U quarreled with him when he doesnt allow you to join the online forum. U didnt understand back then and pushes all the blame to him, making him sound like a big bad guy infront of everyone, when u're the one who started all these troubles.

Now, u realised all these had somehow changed you. He did managed to changed you to someone better. U dont club and always flirting ard. U're better to ur mum and dont make her worry so much like before. U r not playful anymore. U know no matter how, he's still the guy U always think about. He's the only one who's willing to use his hands/shirt to wipe away ur tears. Others will just offer you a tissue. U know you wont be able to forget him...


For ur current bf, he's a MR GOOD GUY.. someone whom every ladies would want in a bf. He gave you whatever u want, even the $400+ PSP. He gave you all the freedom till @ times, you're kept wondering, Is he really so open about everything? Friends keep telling you that such gd guy r hard to come by nowadays and U know, but after a few weeks into this r/s.. you knw it isnt e same like before, when U like him. For whatever reason, U r not as happy as u seems to be. Ppl may envy you for what U got, but u knw what u have is not 100% what u want.

Ex bf keep pushing you back to your bf, he knws u suffer if u go back to him
while bf tells you its time to sort ur feelings right. He'll respect whatever decision you made.

He told you. "love is not about zhan you".
Yours Turly, Niko 3:49 PM ♥