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Wednesday, May 30

Read abt fong's entry abt me and I do agreed with what she said. I cant have both and onced I lose him, there's no way to get him back anymore.

He told me not to contact him anymore. He's gone for gd. I lost someone who's so true to me for good. The feeling sucks..

Mummy told me too.. If u feel u really love him and he's a gd catch, just go ahead.. but if u cant, dont hurt him or urself..

but thn sorry, I think after what ive done, i disappointed him time and again and I make myself sad.

For example like bebe.. onced she was so close with us, esp me. Everything was so fun.. shop, club.. flirt and everything together. Things changed when she got married to her boy. We totally lost contact with her and soon, we started to stop talking abt her till like sometime ago, Jace found her in WG and it was then we knew e reason y. Boy forbids her to hang out with us anymore and she did so! she gave up her freedom cos of love..

2nd example is like fong. Onced so on in clubbing but toned down cos of her bf. Needless to say much, im sure everyone can see her change..

but y cant I...

just now when I got 2free movie pass, I immed think of him.. My sat was alrdy planned out.. work, then go azean wedding then meet him.. watch pirates of e carribean with him even though I got zero interest in tt kind of show..

ya, now dont need to think..I know i will regret for sure.. but what can I do now.. no more way..
Yours Turly, Niko 12:38 AM ♥