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Wednesday, May 31

Just printed out a few more resumes to be sent out to Amara, Goodwood Park n Rasa- Sentosa. Sian, hope at least anyone accepts me.. Im really bored of slacking all day long n im gaining bk e kgs man.

Ytd night actually wanted to go QB pub with xiaoxiao(to find her bf n frens) but ended up we lost our way n reached there at ard 1.40 when ppl is alrdy gng off.. then sme unhappiness took place.. sigh, guys r so petty, but expected la given their attitude :x Xiaoxiao then send me hme.. Nua infront of e com n chatted with Raymond! Argh, long time since I last chat with him.. Actually missed e conversations we used to have.. really nice feeling to chat with him esp when Im down. Yup, asked him whether his workplace need any staffs n he said ya.. so most prob will be gng there to work temp if everything goes well.. earning $5/hr is better than slacking at hme mah...

Now slacking again, feel like gng out but there's no place n didnt wan to waste $$ also.. i think tt piggy dear of mine is still slping. Went to Shanghai with his frens ytd again. Wonder what's so nice abt tt place. Seriously speaking, he did told me tt he will cut down on gng out if i dun like it, but I told him "It's ok, u go haf ur fun.. i wun mind" but i mind actually.. if only he stop being tt playful n stable down abit more, maybe I will love him more... He wanted me to put in more, but he doesnt know tt im afraid to do so after e last r/s. I dunwan to put in more than e other party does lest tt I get hurt once again. Dear doesnt understand cos he doesnt knows what happened b4 I got 2gether with him.. he doesnt know e pain i went thru during that period.. if only I know how to express myself.. Dear, just give me time to open up.. take e chance to know me better n build our r/s stronger bah.. I still <3 u 8muackies*

n ya, was watching Holland V repeat telecast just now n one of e character Jing jing actually auditoned n got a role in e drama.. hehe, did i tell anyone of u tt I always dream of becoming an actress? I loved acting n if only i got e chance to try.. tell me how shld i go abt it :x

k la, time for dinner
edit: Hope tt xiaoxiao make up with her wc :p
Yours Turly, Niko 6:58 PM ♥