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Thursday, April 27

Just a penny for thoughts

Friends of mine r everywhere.. there's classmates, my so called sistas, ex working friends.. friends from diff walks of life.. there r countless of them out there, yet when Im at e lowest peak of my life, I just culdnt find them, culdnt relate to them. Yesh, though I did turn to em when Im down, but i find tt they dun really care as much as they seems.. maybe im sensitive, maybe im right.. but i feel tt there's lotsa fake ppl ard me.. when they need me, they care n when they dun, they just simply dump me aside.

Esp when most of them r attached now. Everything is abt their bf.. even when i asked "XXX, wanna go club on whcihever day?" the reply wuld be "see how lor.. c my boy got go or nt".. n haiz, e sad thing is they tend to plan in pairs, meaning im e odd one out again. I seriously hate this kinda feeling.. dun blame me if one day u find me drifting further away frm u guys..

Nt tt im trying to monopolise u guys, but pls do have a limit. Pls put urself in my shoes, imagine gng out have fun with a few couples n u end up looking like a sore dumb. n haiz, dun complain too much when ur bf is alrdy treating u like a gem compared to those fucking bastards u onced had. B contented with wat u had =)

Nevertheless, Im glad tt I have frens like Yunn who nv failed to care. What touches me is tt she bothers to ask abt me when she knows abt my "D".. where r the rest?? nt even asn sms asking "r u okay now" sigh.. I guess actions speaks louder than words bah..

N yunn, can't wait ti club with u on sat.. Hope u can make it bah. We'll have a great time 2gether.. love ya :p

n i alrdy send him a msg thru frdster, cutting off all contacts with him. He said sorry n im sad to say, ur sorry wun cure things. I just dun wish to hear frm u anymore.. but i dun hate u.. I just wanna get on with my life.. All e best to u n ur gf =)
Yours Turly, Niko 11:13 PM ♥