& Disappointment ♥

Saturday, February 18

Ytd, met up with fong and tt 2 at somerset. Didnt really know where to go at first cos everywhere was like so ex on a fri night. Although part of me wanted to sing, but i went against e idea as 1.I'm broke and 2.I didnt want to feel down... so we went to arcade first.. while like waiting to play daytona, I saw *Liarcheater* this name flashing n e first thing on my mind is "what e hell does he want". Ans his call n he came over to find me

He's supposed to join us, but I guess he feel kinda left out cos of someone's action. Its so obvious that he/they dun welcome him lor.. but anyway, its a gd thing maybe..

went to some pub over at central mall area. Was feeling really bad.. I can feel that my temper is reaching its peak soon. A warning to tt bastard, pls stop hurting fong any more, if not I swear I will make ur life become a living hell..

wanted to njoy.. but really can't.. its so xin ku to be pretending.. I smile on e outside, but my heart cant stop crying.. I knew whatever his actions or words last night is due to drinking.. I actually can sense it, but I just wish that its true.. somehow, my sixth sense really prove me right.. I start to believe tt a woman's sixth sense is really accurate..

This morning was in sch when he replied my sms.. I tried very hard to control my tears frm flowing down.. its a gd thing tt i controlled.. only tt my eyes r watery all e way.. n stupid me, I cried abit on e bus.. stupid right.. y should I do this cos of a guy who doesnt accept me for who I am..haiz, but no matter how hard I told myself, there's a fact that I cant change.. Im too soft n emotional.. n i guess I really did like him when I know I shldnt.. but doesnt mean when u like someone u gotta be with him isnt it? So, I'll just wish to see him staying happy always.. didnt want becos of me n make him so confused or what..

I f [you] happened to be reading this post, pls go ahead with ur decision. U dun have to be bothered whether Im hurt or what.. time will heal everything one day.. as long as u r comfortable, Im alright
Yours Turly, Niko 2:56 PM ♥