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Friday, June 17
never did i expect i hurt my bebe mei. was on da bus when i saw e msg tt she sent. my tears rolled down n my heart hurts.. really hurts.. did nt know that things had come this way.. i tot i want to help, but guess i make things worse.. maybe i shld stop puting my nose into this matters.. or else it would seems tt im da 2headed snake.. all of them i love.. each n everyone of them had something special..ching, e one whom i can joke n cock with
xiaofong, another cocksterz too
jace, quite quiet n find her innocent
bebe, i love her da most from my heart
but yet y did i do this.. y didnt i prevent things frm bcoming this state.. i really failed badly.. i wanted them all to patch up n da 5 of us gng out happily like last time.. i hope it will, but somehow it may be my wishful thinking
i've known bebe for gng to 1yr.. since last aug? from total strangers whom chatted online till now, it'z been a long long way.. we understand each other de most n stick to each other whereever we go.. i admit i kinda unhappy cos she was quite close with jace recently, but she got her freedom to know more frens what.. so i juz kept quiet
maybe i tot tt she didnt love me as much as b4.. so i was unhappy.. really unhappy.. but i kept quiet.. when jace told me juz now tt bebe still put me first, i almost cry again.. how could i do this? i love her yet i failed to help her.. i badly want them to patch up.. but was afraid.. the more i do.. the more misunderstanding
guess i could only sit n watch.. n pray tt things go e rite way.. watever it is, i miss bebe.. will always love her.. no matter what
i sucks.. i really do.. hate myself
*gonez with tears*
Yours Turly, Niko 1:24 AM ♥
